Whoa.. tidur pukul 21:15 dan terbangun pukul 03:45 pagi. There must be something wrong with me. Still down with that feeling, even its already 4 days left. Its the last thing on my thought when I was about to go to sleep. And exactly the first thing on my mind when I woke up. Damn that feeling!

Harap-harap cemas, a little bright light seen from the dark. At least sedikit terhibur lah, meskipun belum ada kepastian juga. Klo cahaya kecil itu bener-bener nyata… ^^ I’m gonna damn really happy!!!

My parents relationships been better lately, meskipun bokap masih rada sensi sama nyokab. Hmm, it can’t be helped, my Mom took the wrong decision, even she admit her fault, the problems remains there. Waiting to be settled. And every part of the family member has to be involved. I wish I could help more. But I guess its the best I can do.

Kerjaanku sebenernya banyak, tapi entah kenapa kok kebiasaan mbulet gak jelas ini sulit banget diilangin, apa karena aku yg perfeksionis, jadi klo ada sedikit ketidaknyamanan, rasanya males banget ngapa-ngapain.. I guess not, I’ve been on this situation, but I managed to go through all of this. Apa mungkin karena perasaanku ae sing gak jelas ?!?

Duh, keknya emang gak isa dipungkiri klo perasaanku saat ini bener-bener ngaruh ke kinerjaku. Am I not professional enough? no, to be honest, justru kerjaanku lah yang selama ini ngebantuin buat sekedar forget the problem for a moment. Am I running away?

Kemaren, salah seorang temen bilang klo aku terlalu idealis, terlalu workaholic, yang ujung-ujungnya… I have nothing left on my side… am I?

Anyway, who.. what did I have ? what I loose?